December 2011
Sometimes I wonder why you left me, I remember when I was young and you were my best friend. But now you’re gone. I struggle with this idea not knowing if it’s fate or just not possessing the ability to keep something alive. I know they say that if you really love someone you should never give up, but come on now, the door swings both ways.
I was just hoping that if I closed my eyes and prayed hard enough, you’d be at my door.
“If you want to leave, then just go.”
It’s amazing how the world can just shut you out, but also, how you can just shut the world out.
“You have to be so addicted to something to know it’s killing you, and you...”
“I will not cry because I know that’s weakness in your eyes.”
Having a broken family on Christmas
“You desired my attention, but denied my affections, my affections.”
“But tell me now where was my fault,
in loving you with my whole heart?
Oh,...”
“You have a heart of gold.”
I put on my old lip gloss to see if it would remind me of you, and it did, oh how it did.
“And just like that her world collapses again.”
You told me you were happy that I chose you, as of I had a choice.
“I thank god he was blind, I thank god he let you down.”
“It’s not how many times you’ve been knocked down
It’s how...”
I just want to look at you and not feel a thing.
Yeah I know, but it all hurts the same.
Such a beautiful face to hide such an ugly soul.
Lifes' too short to love someone who only hurts...
I’m just tired of talking about it.
Realizing that you’re just a 12AM phone call and an ego boost.
Just because I care about you doesn't mean you can...
